peterpan48

peterpan48 @ 2006-03-24T16:47:00

2006-03-25T00:43:59Z

well got my report card- got a C- in hisotry, thank the lord. a fuckin F in ASL- i HATE newsom. wtf? i mean my history teacher changes my grade from an F to a C so that it's weighted, and my friggin ASL teacher won't do anything?!?! but overall, my gpa was 3.17... not bad for having an F and one A... ha

oh and... my coahces quit my team today. yeah. everyone was in shock, people were crying.... our team's falling apart... all we know is we have a new coach on monday... great..

peterpan48 @ 2006-03-16T21:50:00

2006-03-17T05:59:49Z

well today had to be one of the worst/longest days of my life.

so i go to history and i have an F in that class right now cuz we've taken two tests which i've failed both, and thats all thats on the grading period. aaaand i missed the last test, which i have to make up next thursday- hopefully it won't interfere with my softball game cuz its early release... but yeah my parents definately think that i went to take that test. so yeah then it was off to english where we had a timed writing, and i tried really hard to concentrate but i just couldn't for the life of me. sooo we'll see how that goes.

and then- the worst of it all, in asl i found out i have an 18.2%. fucking bitch won't let me make up anything either. and its all because of my suspension. ALL of my other teachers let me make up work, except her which ruins my grade the most. wtf? and LAUREN who missed FOUR days of school has a 20 something percent- which isn't much higher, i know, but its still higher. wtf? i just started crying when i found that out because newsom was being such a bitch about it. i wasl ike arguing with her about this whole thing because how my other teachers let me make up work because it was such a ridiculous suspension and all this stuff, and how i was only gone from her class for one day and that could not have possibly brought me downt hat low. so then she was like no you were gone two days- oh and i just remembered why i missed that ohter class. i went home that day cuz i had such bad cramps fuckin a. so yeah- i didn't tell her that at the time, cuz i didn't remember. but anyways... so yeah thats fucking retarted. so i just started crying in class, i couldn't help it- everything just seemed to be falling apart, and that just put it over the edge.

but then people were like trying to cheer me up, i really didn't want people to pay attention to me because whenever they brought up to feel better, it just brought my mind back to the situation and i'd wanna cry some more. but they were all nice to me... mark was so cute. but yeah they were like hey! its short day! we get to go eat. and i was just in a bitchy mood and was like 'well.. i have a chem test to take after school, which will then make me late to softball, and then i can eat. and then after that i have to go babysit' which is all true but they were really trying to make me feel better but i just kinda shut them down.. whoops.

yeah so then all that went down - i did sucky at softball, our coach was so mad cuz we lost yesterday. he put me in left field wtf? NEVER played there. sothat was cool... kinda sucked over there. then i went home ate, took a shower, went to starbucks, then went to babysit. now just got home. the little kids were brats- so i got nothing done cuz like 10 minutes after putting them to bed, i got out more homework and right then the parents came home. loooovely.

uhg- and just to top it all off ... lets see i'm gonna have like a 2.5. yeah wow- that has to be my lowest gpa ever. and thats hoping for a B in chem, which i have a D in right now, but i just took a make up test.. but just how everythign else is going... i'm sure i failed that. greeeat. holy fuck- if i don't pull that 2.5 off, i'm not gonna be able to play softball. holy shit. i've NEVER stressed to get a fucking 2.5

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well ... only good news is my mom said if my asl teacher doesn't do something- she's pulling me out... fucking newsom.

peterpan48 @ 2006-03-08T19:44:00

2006-03-09T03:41:35Z

so i started for the first time on vasity tonight. they fucking kicked my ass.
my stupid coaches told ryan (a returning senior) that she would be starting against this team because its the fucking number one team in the county. but oh no- right before we start warming up my coach informs me that i will be starting against the number one team in the county. looovely. everyone was in shock- which made it even that much worse.. because yeah i was nervous and scared and whatnot, but so was everyone else on the team. graaaand.

so i got in, first inning they score hm four runs on me i think? yeeahhh and the other team's pitcher- oh she only strikes out everyone in the line up first time around. fuckin a- and then i realize hey i've seen this girl before. yeah- shes definately the batbuster's pitcher- who have won nationals for like the past four years in a row. oh and shes a junior and has a verbal full ride to ucla ... beautiful. i was like this is just great.

so basically to sum it up i feel like the suckiest softball player alive. i fucking cried at the game, whcih made me even more upset- cuz i'm all emotional from being on my period. and it just kinda swirled down hill.

then i got to hear 45 minutes of my mom lecturing to me about this all which just made me even more upset, and she kept telling me all these things to do to try and help me, but i'm just one of those kinds of people that if you tell me i should do something- i'm not gonna do it. so that was no help.

oh and to comfort me after i got pulled out of the middle of the fourth inning... my coach comes over to me and was like 'well don't be too upset... you know they're a good ball team. but you know you should know not to pitch anything around the strike zone and keep it off the plate. and you know you really need to work on that change up of yours- its really too fast right now.' i'm like thanks for the advice after i got beaten up. god damn. and i can't believe he fuckin put me against that team as my first starting game.

so its bascially just gonna be a repeat of last summer- the whole team not having confidence in me now, and its just gonna suck when i get put in to pitch.

fuckin a.... and were gonna get our butts run off tomorrow. greeaaat. man i love it..

peterpan48 @ 2006-03-07T22:17:00

2006-03-08T06:16:58Z

so we had our first real game today- first game of a tournament were in too. and guess who scored the first run? oh yeah- that was me.... sweet!!!!!!! =) i was stoaked on that. mmmhm

we play the number one team in the county tomorrow... hmmm yeah it should be interesting. god damn- we play all of the top teams in the county cuz we won avocado league last year, so they think that were really good this year.. when really we lost our main players last year cuz they were seniors... haha yeaaahhh its interesting. but we won today =). sure- it'll probably be the easiest game we have all year... but hey you know whatevs. whatevs.

well yeah i got home at like 9 30 from my game, and then talked to alex for like ten minutes then took a shower then iced my arm for 20 minutes, and now its 10 20 and i still have hisoty and english homework to do... looovely. i should get goin on that.

peterpan48 @ 2006-03-05T20:47:00

2006-03-06T04:44:43Z

the card i was telling you about:

is it not adorable?

inside (incase you forgot):

"You're all that I want
and more than I deserve.

I love you."

♥♥♥

peterpan48 @ 2006-02-23T18:43:00

2006-02-24T02:44:17Z

we had our first practice today. it was good- i'm feeling more confident with myself playing with them. =) i'm excited to be a part of the team too cuz its like everything is very team oriented- like they do team dinners and lunches and have these superstitions and do a buncha stuff together. so it should be fun.

and found out i got a 73 on my chem test, which means i have an 80 in the class... oh well. failing my history class. oh well. 80.3 in my math class.... oh well! whatch ya gonna do.

well actually i'm gonna try to try harder. maybe it'll show in my grades... i hope.

i'm gonna be a busy girl between all my softball stuff, and the dance show is coming up, and with all the school work- and i have my ap test and sat's and sat II's and act all coming up... soooooo if i'm brief with updates like i have been.... you know why. =) so i better be gettin some studying done right about now. so peace out

<3

oh and ps- today's me and alex's six month anniversary! =DDD

peterpan48 @ 2006-02-22T18:59:00

2006-02-23T02:59:40Z

well once again i have like no time.. but just so you all know i had like the longest day of my life today.

so i got jumped on by the jenny's and britney and alyssa and alex at friggin 4 45 in the MORNING yes yes. it was softball initiation cuz we found out teams today, and yes i made varisty. =)

but so they took me to breakfast at jenny's house with the other girls who made varsity and we had to wear the bright yellow hideous shirts with crap written all over them (pictures later hopefully) and then they painted/wrote stuff all over my face and then did my hair craaaazily! haha man, i didn't get enough pictures... =( oh well. i do have some though that alex and them too atleast. i'll have to update with those when i get them. supposedly theyr'e gonna make a myspace of the newbies and put all the pictures on there... loooovely.

but yeah just wanted to let you all know that. it was great fun. but i have a great amount of homework to do. so peace out

peterpan48 @ 2006-02-20T18:49:00

2006-02-21T02:49:03Z

well i'm super tired, going off of about 10 hours of sleep for the past two days... had softball tryouts and went to camp this weekend. and it was lots of fun... cold but mostly fun. although i didn't feel so good, i think i'm getting sick- gosh darn coldness...

but yeah i'll update more later. but i had a grand 'ol fun filled weekend... which didn't seem very long cuz i was gone for most of it, but oh well! i need sleep...

valentine's day!

2006-02-16T01:20:17Z

so my first update... shall be about my valentine's day.

so in the begining i was kinda sad... cuz i was like well even though i hav a boyfriend, i was physically gonna be alone cuz ... ya know long distance relationships has their draw backs.

but so during lunch i get this text from alex (after i told him happy valentine's day) it was like 'thanks babe, you too. and make sure you get home right after school' and i was like uuhhh ok? and renee was like ah! he's here he's here! and i was like nooo his mom wouldn't let him drive all the way down this weekend so i wasl ike well how else would he get here... and no there's no way he could be here- its way too long of a drive just to see me for like one day... but i still had some hope he would be here cuz you know he's homeschooled now...

so i get this message from him after softball and he's like 'hey kay, i was just calling you to say happy valentine's day, and i love you... aaand yeah, so call me after your practice- i'm just on my way to the motorcycle store store right now, but hopefully i'll talk to you later'

at this point iw as still like hmm that could be a cover up story... so i call him back after practice and were talkin about our day and he tells me about all this stuff he did... and i tell him how i went to panda for lunch and he was like 'mmm that sounds so good- i think i'm gonna call brent after this and see if he wants to go there with me' so then i was like grr... please be at my house- but that kinda did me in and made me really think he wasn't gonna be there. but i still had a suspicion- cuz it was really quiet, and his house usually isn't that quiet... so i ask him like 'so whats at my house?' and hes like 'well, i can't tell you- its a surprise, and besides i'm not even sure if its there' and i was lik bleeeh gosh darn..

but anyways then i'm talkin to him, and i get home and i dont' see his truck or any cars anywhere that could be his, but my dad was home. so i'm like hmmm... ok. so i get in the house and on the secretary thing thats in our front hallway, there's this really cute pink hippo stuffed animal with a card in it with my name in alex's handwriting, and i'm like hey- how'd this get here...? and the card was really cute and it had these two people falling on the outside with heart balloons, and the inside was like 'i'm so glad we fell in love, happy valentine's day' and at the bottom it was like 'now come upstairs to get your flowers'. so i run upstairs, and theres qhite roses in a vase with a friends season next to it (he knows i'm obsessed =) hehe) and so i'm looking at the flowers, and i'm about to look in my room to see if he's there, and he walks out, and i was like ahh!!! i can't believe your here!!!!! =D it was so exciting. and so he took me out to dinner to islands, and we just hung out. and i can't believe it- he drove all the way here and got here atl ike 3 30, and left at like 9 30, and it takes like 2 and a half hours to get here, so thats like five hours of driving to spend like five hours with me... awww it was sooo cute. =) i'm happy.

peterpan48 @ 2006-02-12T21:15:00

2006-02-13T05:12:46Z

testing testing? 123?